The Long Wait...

 Like the new bride's wait to see the Full Moon...

Or the happiness of the bees awaiting the Summer Bloom..

 I wait for my heart to start beating soon..

As i count the days for the return of my Monsoon..  

Like the first drop of rain on the scorched , cracked Soil..

Like a mother seeing her baby after all the turmoil..

I wait to look at those bright brown eyes..

Those lashes...those lips...that soothing big smile...

Bereft of light even a diamond appears as stone..

But bring a ray of light and it's sparkle just grows..

Coping up somehow as the Days pass by...

Waiting for my wind that always helped me fly...

My vision is so blurred and my touch so lifeless..

I cant find happiness in the regular life's shabbiness...

I am just a body with a missing hollow core..

I await my Gabriel who always made me whole..!!

The "BOX Culture"

Sitting in my cubicle one late evening working on some Customer Issues i realized something that scared me a little. Having worked in the IT Industry for more than 2 years now i realized how much it had changed me.It was making me something that i never wanted to be.
It was making me Box in myself and feel ok about it.The 4 walls in office....and the 4 walls of my room after coming back from office...That was it..! The only out of the BOX experience i got daily was the ride to office and back. It feels so pathetic to call that as the most exciting thing of the day given bangalore's traffic..!!!
But the worst thing was that even though this "Living in the BOX" was getting under my skin but my life was slowly changing into this Monotone of order.The best thing about life is its wondrous unpredictability but somehow i was fine living in these boxes.
I could feel a part of me dying everyday but still i was going through each day living in the BOX since changing things required a fresh perspective and fresh effort and i didn't know where to start.With every passing day the effort grew and my determination shrunk.But thankfully on the verge of completely loosing it i found my Vent....!!