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Sunday, May 1, 2016

I Found Mine





Walking alone , on a path less trodden,
i was lost and didn't know where was i being led ,
instead of stopping, i kept on walking,
and my destination found me instead.

My destination wasn't a place, or a finish line. It was the silhouette of a person standing in a distance. Its hard to know you have reached your destination when you don't know what you were looking for.
As i walked a little closer the highlights became clearer. i counted 2 arms , 2 legs and 2 wings.

i was shocked to see that after walking so long, after being lost for so long i had found my guardian angel. I was frozen and didn't know what to do. do i go ahead and meet this person that i had become sure did not exist or was this just a figment of my imagination, my brain showing me what i wanted to see.

i asked loudly, "who are you ". A light shined , and the clouds cleared up to shower the light on this angel.




My eyes widened, my legs froze and my heart skipped a beat at this miracle. The dark silhouette changed to a dazzling white silhouette of light in the night. It was at this exact moment that i found something in me. I felt as if i had been longing for something my entire life and finally it was in front of me. But knowing my luck i wasn't sure if it was there to stay or to fade away.

There were a lot of voices in my head. some of them telling me to run , to not raise my expectations, that this was also a lie. But among those hundreds of voices was a small and hesitant voice. As time passed this voice became clearer and louder. It said " You haven't come this far to turn back now. i don't know if its meant to be or not but if you let it go now you might regret it for the rest of your life. Take the leap forward and maybe you will fall. But what if you don't...... what if this is what you were always looking for. what if this is it. Isn't this "IF" worth taking a risk for."



I gathered up my courage and inched forward. With each step the silhouette grew brighter and brighter. And then suddenly in that star of light i saw two arms opening up as if inviting me in.


 Tears rolled down my eyes as i rushed to this image and embraced it in my arms.

I could feel things in me that i had long forgotten. I felt complete. I felt at peace. 

Overwhelmed with so many emotions i could not from a proper sentence so what came out of my mouth was "Why?"

The light finally spoke in a heavenly booming voice. " I am the destination to your journey, i am the reward to your hard work, i am the fruit to your suffering, i am what you want and more importantly i am what you need. I am your angel and i am here to stay."

I could not believe my ears. I just stared at the light and felt a sense of warmth in me. 

I realized something that day. Sometimes in order to find your destination , you have to get lost sometimes. In order to find what what you were looking for , you have to forget about it sometimes. In order to be at peace, you have to fight a war before. In order to find the shade, you have to walk in the sun before. Because its only those who persevere, who find their destination 

                                               I finally found Mine.


Sunday, February 7, 2016

Wo Taazi Hawa ka Jhoonka



वो समां था थमा हुआ
वो आँधियों ने भी था रुख मोड़ा 
इस बवंडरों की महफ़िल मैं
खामोशी ने साथ न छोड़ा

जब हवा मैं मायूसी थी 
और मरुस्थली था मेरा जहान 
तब चला एक ताज़ी हवा का झोंका
और ले गया वो मेरी सारी थकान

मेरे हर रोम रोम को जैसे वो सहला गया 
मेरी सारी चोटों पर जैसे मलहम लगा गया 

जिन आँखों की चमक थी गायब
उनमे वो अपनी चकाचोंद भर गया 
निकली थी खुद वो एक राही बन के 
पर अब किसी की मंज़िल बन गयी 

एक अजीब सा सुकून था उस्के अक्स में 
मेरी अंदर की आग को शीतल कर गया 
कुछ जादू ही था उसके स्पर्श में 
की इस मरुस्थली मैं भी वो फूल उगा गया 

एक अरसे के बाद इस दिल ने वो धड़कन महसूस की है 
रागों मैं बहते खून की गर्मी महसूस की है 
भूल ही गया था मैं की प्यार क्या होता है 
आज पहली बार होठों पे वो नमी महसूस की है. 

मायूसी ने समां बंध रखा था यहाँ 
आज ये सहर खुशियाँ खीच लायी है 
उस परवरदिगार की रहमत ही है ये 
जो ताज़ी हवा का झोंका खींच लायी है