Strange little thing called life...

well.. it's rightly said that life doesn't stop to pick you up.. it keep on going n you have to get up yourself n chase it again.. but one thing is for sure that life never ditches you.. it makes up for all the things it made you suffer for... in strange ways... you just need to see it..

I don't believe in god or guardian angels...but i sure believe that life is always like a flowing river.. in order to have the most out of it you just need to be one with the flow.. and not an obstacle in its path.. you need to let go... change.. accept defeat... and let others get to you... just let life make up for all it made you cry for and you will love living it..!!

I am a believer... maybe not a conventional thinker ..

I sure believe that life is a hard ass teacher but it wont ever let you sink down in despair such that you never come up... it always brings you up and back in the light... just let it help you.

I really didn't think i would say this any time soon... but i think i love my life..!!!

Still in the moment...

Everyone used to crib that "growing up sucks" n i used to laugh at those people saying i cant wait to grow up ...

I guess its rightly said that "one maybe wrong but a group is generally right."..

N i realize my huge mistake now.. well growing up does suck...

The worst part of growing up is that you are responsible for all your mistakes and ventures .. n u cant expect to blame it on others hoping that others will understand..

I still remember how i used to hate when being the youngest one i was told everything what i needed to do.. n i used to wish to grow up soon as to stop this anarchy..!!

but now.. what i wont give to be back there again..

when the biggest tension u had was 'Will u get caught for making a fake signature on your report card..' or ... "how would you bunk your coaching today"..

when the biggest life altering decision seemed choosing between clothes when your mommy took you shopping

when the harshest punishment you could get was a smack on the head or being sent out of the class....

when the biggest pain u endured was when u fell n bruised your knee or elbow..

when all our big decisions were taken by elder keeping us out of the hassle...

n now..

when the biggest tension is more like 'what am i doing with my life...!!'

when the biggest life altering decision is more like choosing between parents and your wife..

when the harshest punishment you get is more like being dumped by the only person you ever loved

when the biggest pain you endure is knowing that the person u loved will never love you back...

Ahh...How i wish i could be a kid again....!!

Strangely Jealous..!!

The person u thought would never move on .. who would stay there.. and maybe if moved on would be a long time after you did..

Knowing that that one person moved on..and to add to the misery ..moved on before you even came close to it... makes you realize a very integral part of human behaviour i.e. how fast your feelings can sway from compassion to self loathing... n knowing that you had thought that this day would come but you never thought u would be the one feeling the wrath of the pity..!!

-Food for Thought

In the midst of all that happened...

In the midst of all that happened...

i went from normal to soft...

i tried to find out where i was

but i was so damm lost...

In the midst of all that happened..

i wish i could foresee what's coming...

I wish my gaurdian angel was better at his job..

or atleast i could know what he was planning..

knowing that there ain't a bottom to the pit i am falling...

gives me a strange feeling inside..

i know its not sadness or fear...

Its more like despair with the self loathing on the side..

Having lost at what u thought u were best

and brought down to the ground when u were fair.

this tainted feeling doesnt let my soul rest

It still wants to find answers which are not there.

Having everything u ever wanted in your grasp..

and then loosing all of it in an instant like a flash..

Your feet trying to find some ground as u fall

your dreams..hopes..fantasies..all cut down with a slash..

In the midst of all this..

I wish i knew how to recover...

i wish i had a plan to surrender...

starting from scratch a'int that easy..

wishing everyday that u wont remember ...

some people try to find the missing pieces of their puzzle...

Some fall to the abyss ...

But i forgot what game i had to play in the hustle..

In the midst of all this...