In the midst of all that happened...

In the midst of all that happened...

i went from normal to soft...

i tried to find out where i was

but i was so damm lost...

In the midst of all that happened..

i wish i could foresee what's coming...

I wish my gaurdian angel was better at his job..

or atleast i could know what he was planning..

knowing that there ain't a bottom to the pit i am falling...

gives me a strange feeling inside..

i know its not sadness or fear...

Its more like despair with the self loathing on the side..

Having lost at what u thought u were best

and brought down to the ground when u were fair.

this tainted feeling doesnt let my soul rest

It still wants to find answers which are not there.

Having everything u ever wanted in your grasp..

and then loosing all of it in an instant like a flash..

Your feet trying to find some ground as u fall

your dreams..hopes..fantasies..all cut down with a slash..

In the midst of all this..

I wish i knew how to recover...

i wish i had a plan to surrender...

starting from scratch a'int that easy..

wishing everyday that u wont remember ...

some people try to find the missing pieces of their puzzle...

Some fall to the abyss ...

But i forgot what game i had to play in the hustle..

In the midst of all this...