Broken Again...!!! but Not Crushed..!!

I wish she knew....!!

A Sublime Chaos...

Its like a wave of molten dreams...

all washed up and intense...

Its like a stubborn and arrogant steed..

that wont understand the essence...

Soaring with the eagles..Flying with the wind...

U see a dark cloud up ahead...

lit by the strokes of lightning...

As if the devil luring you in..

Blinded by your pride you care not and jump in ....

Hit by the lightning you fall to the ground...

wings all burned up .. spirit all charred...

u try to get up but don't know how...

you gather your energy...but there ain't left much..

you had never thought the ending would be such...

Crawling on the ground you find a few sticks..

making them your crutches you pull your self up..

Not knowing which way to go ..not knowing which way u came...

u realize u had so much when u didn't care...

cursing the heavens ...cursing the cold...

you realize its only you who was at fault..

opening your eyes to a world of reality..

finally finding the ways of life..

you try to cope up with the changes..

but its just so fucking hard..

It takes some time to concur..

that you have no options left..

Wishing you had wings again wont help..

Walking on land ain't so bad..

Gathering your courage and ruffling you spirit you move on..

Eyes at the sky.. still watching that dark cloud..

U try to forget ...n try to forgive...

you thank god for the life he saved...

Watching your perseverance and your pain...

the heavens cry and the dark cloud weeps..

u hear a loud voice crystal clear even in the storm..

"Everything will be ok...dont worry..carry on!!"

You try to calm yourself and not think ...

But its hard to stop when you are on the brink.. 

A Sublime Chaos surrounds you...

heart pounding...blood racing..gut wrenching...

you take a long breath and close your eyes..

hoping when u open them ..it would be sunrise..!!

Maaa meri maaa....!!

A glimmer of Hope is all u Need..!!

Like a shiny diamond in the murky sky..

Like the tears of joy when you cry...

Like finding the safe haven in hades layer..

Like finally getting an answer to a long forgotten prayer...!!

Like finding a penny lying around on your morning walk..

Like finally finding the right key for the lock...

Like working till you bleed to earn your first pay..

Like knowing that the one you love will stay...

Being gloomy,sad,marooned and back...

It was a long and gruesome journey from the start..

But when you come to know that your efforts bore seed...

You realize ..a Glimmer of Hope is all you Need...

Like the feeling of finishing an old pending puzzle..

Like finding an old family portrait in the attic rubble...

Like choosing a way on reaching the crossroads...not knowing if you would reach you destination...

Like driving endlessly for hours in the rain..and finally reaching home forgetting your frustration....

Like waking up to a familiar face in the Morning...

Like having your hopes high even though knowing the day will be boring..

Like always keeping an old trinket with Ganesha's face ..in your Wallet ..for the charm...

But knowing that the same small old jewel will save you form all cosmic harm..    

Praying everyday for happiness and  being contentful ...

Hoping that all will be heard and the lord shall not be revengeful..  

Believing that to be happy you need not bleed...

And realizing that..a glimmer of hope is all you need...

Patience might be a virtue for the one who has..!!!

I hate to wait....and especially to wait for good things to happen is the toughest n most painful.

It takes a toll on you...slowly and slowly...and you don't even come to know that the boredom has crept inside till the bones ...starts with lazy weekends...coming late to office..missing meetings...then it aggravates to unimaginable proportions...
By the time you come to know its too late...you are skipping stuff that you always loved...doing stuff that you never found interesting...
you just dream of stuff that could happen...n begin an infinite loop of wait for it to come true without any effort..

Patience might be a virtue but apparently of what i have come to realize is that virtue is highly over rated...
its like a condom company preaching abstinence and chastity.
We all are just base mortals with temptations in the end and each one's definitions of morals is different so what is virtue then...
How can you universalize that patience is a virtue for all when we all have different moral sense.
Patience might be a virtue for the one who has....but for the one who has NOT ...its a torture beyond any other...its like asking you to follow abstinence while living in a brothel.

I want things to happen....but apparently that is not how it works..!!!

I'm sorry I'm bad..!!