The Things I Could Never Say

Aap aaye to hawa main bhi nasha sa cha gaya hai...

Aap aaye to is soone dil main bhi toofan sa aa gaya hai..

Aapko ek pal dekhne ki aas par hi ji rahe hain...

Appka aks mehsoos karne ke liye hi mar rahe hain...

Aapki wo madmast karne wali khushboo..

Aapke sath ki gayi wo har justjoo...

Aapki wo shararat se bhari nazren...

Aapki wo baar baar mu pe aati zulphen...

Wo saare sath bitaye varsh...

Aur aapka jhatke dene wala sparsh...

Aapka wo ruk ruk kar muskurana

Aur poochne par has kar sirf sir hilana...

Aankhen nam ho jati hain jab wo pal hume rulate hain...

Chehre par ek ajib si kasak reh raji hai jab wo pal yaad aate hain...

dil bechara wo sab fir se karna chahta hai...sunna chahta hai...

dhadakte dhadakte thak chuka...ab wo bhi kuch dhadkane laangna chahta hai...

Kaash ye duniya itni zaalim na hoti...

Ya ye kambakht dil itna darpok na hota..

Magar is dil ki dhadkan ko khud se alag kaise hone dun...

Badi mushkil se fir sunayi di hai...ise fir se ansuna kaise hone dun...!!

Jab maanga tab na mila..aur jab mila to soncha na tha...

Kya karen.. kaafi waqt se ye saali zindagi ko kisi ne roka na tha..

Ruk ruk ke chalti hai ...aaur chal chal ke rukti hai...

Par sali meri zindagi ki gaadi...kabhi seedhi nai chalti hai..!!  

Aortic Pump..!!

The places you go...the people you meet..

Leave a mark ..how much ever bleak..

Human heart is really vast...

It can accommodate a lot of past..!!

People come and people go..

But this stupid heart doesn't forgo..

time and again it keeps on stacking...

oh how i wish it loved a little slacking..!!

Piles are made ..archived and stored...

and nothing or no one is ignored..!!

All fall in this stupid heart..

A few in the right places...rest apart...

We never have to sort the people in there..

It does it automatically for all we care..!!

We never realise how these people landed where they did..

But whenever we think of someone we find them in the right grid..!!

Human heart is a major mystery...

Its vast ,complex and has a lot of history..!!

How we try to understand this vile creature..

who resides in each of us like a bad ass teacher..

who lets us fall in all the pits and pots..

giving us practical lessons which help us alot..!!

I tried to control this inhumane preacher...

But couldn't control his primal features..

It gives us pain...and gives us sorrow..

and then makes up for it by making us happy tomorrow..

Its the most worthless yet the most important thing..

there is no living with it..or without this stupid thing..

I tried to understand it but lost everytime..

But never was i sad on being defeated by a fine line..!!

I understand now the most important fact..

Somethings are better left intact...

The more i try the more lost i become.....

But one thing is for sure..i love my Aortic Pump..!!  :D

The End Result is Worth The Wait..!!

I feel happy but not content …
I feel ridiculous but still don’t resent..
I made my own way and now m stuck…
Never knew it would still be dumb luck..

Over the fence and into the Ditch..
Still no better than the previous shit..
It a patchy road with loads of bumps..
the moment u relax … u hit a bigger lump..

The patches of straight make u go fast…
but the bump in the end has the last laugh..
your body gets bruised …your vehicle is battered…
But u still keep on going as if it never mattered.

I will not fall …I will not give up…
Even if it takes a lifetime to sum up..
I might get battered ..i will get scraped..
But the end result is worth the wait..!!

Freshness Returns...

After a long stretch of rain and storm..

When the sun shines high and clears the dark clouds..

The happiness returns to a sinking mariner..

Who was ready to read his final vows.

Holding on to a plank ,the last remains of his ship..

Being pounded by the waves and crushed to a pulp..

Looking high in the heavens as the lightning tears the sky..

Trying to figure what he did to deserved such a smite.

Pretty sure of his demise his life started to flash..

Knowing he did everything for the one but still met his match..

Waiting for the dark waters to finally engulf him..

And hoping to meet the maker to finally question him.

But the one who was watching had some different plans...

After the gruesome night ,the day befalls

And the same dark waters sparked like diamonds

The same pounding waves patted his back..

The new found faith and the new found fate..

Were refreshing but a little confusing..

Taking some time to settle in his thoughts..

he finally found the reason for his miracle.

His test was over and he had survived..

The dusk of darkness was now the dawn of light..

His eyes couldn't believe and he stood there in awe..

A sandy shore and palm trees were what he saw...

Broken Again...!!! but Not Crushed..!!

I wish she knew....!!

A Sublime Chaos...

Its like a wave of molten dreams...

all washed up and intense...

Its like a stubborn and arrogant steed..

that wont understand the essence...

Soaring with the eagles..Flying with the wind...

U see a dark cloud up ahead...

lit by the strokes of lightning...

As if the devil luring you in..

Blinded by your pride you care not and jump in ....

Hit by the lightning you fall to the ground...

wings all burned up .. spirit all charred...

u try to get up but don't know how...

you gather your energy...but there ain't left much..

you had never thought the ending would be such...

Crawling on the ground you find a few sticks..

making them your crutches you pull your self up..

Not knowing which way to go ..not knowing which way u came...

u realize u had so much when u didn't care...

cursing the heavens ...cursing the cold...

you realize its only you who was at fault..

opening your eyes to a world of reality..

finally finding the ways of life..

you try to cope up with the changes..

but its just so fucking hard..

It takes some time to concur..

that you have no options left..

Wishing you had wings again wont help..

Walking on land ain't so bad..

Gathering your courage and ruffling you spirit you move on..

Eyes at the sky.. still watching that dark cloud..

U try to forget ...n try to forgive...

you thank god for the life he saved...

Watching your perseverance and your pain...

the heavens cry and the dark cloud weeps..

u hear a loud voice crystal clear even in the storm..

"Everything will be ok...dont worry..carry on!!"

You try to calm yourself and not think ...

But its hard to stop when you are on the brink.. 

A Sublime Chaos surrounds you...

heart pounding...blood racing..gut wrenching...

you take a long breath and close your eyes..

hoping when u open them ..it would be sunrise..!!